What we shared was something beautiful. Being so close, I knew that nothing could stand in our way.
You tugged at my heartstrings, but the melody blissfully sings a long, forgotten memory.
When you left, I... I lost myself. I didn't know who I was anymore.
It's as if Cupid had struck me alone with a flaming arrow; happiness buried in cinders.
I know it's a lot to ask, but someday, deep down, heart in the purest of hearts, I know you'll still be there. Waiting for me.
Through a combination of fear, hope and compassion, your shining light will guide me home.
I love you. Like no other. That cannot be changed.
You may be missing from my l
Swings And Roundabouts by chrisosullyo, literature
Literature
Swings And Roundabouts
Two weary travellers forever to wander, with only the wind to guide them.
Standing alone. Elevating to new heights. Effort embedded deep within the bones of your ancestry.
Circular motion. One track-mind. The skill of survival, only your strength can support you.
Both moving in one direction. Neither going nowhere.
You conform to the rustics, a fateful bond which encapsulates within every unforgiving moment.
Such elemental attraction. Show your true colours.
Azure sky reflects upon the Sun's mysterious gaze, twinkle in its eye.
Not a cloud is to be seen on such a glorious day... yet judgement has never been foggier.
Life is no picni
Living all alone without a care
All of my emotions unprepared
Spread your broken wings and learn to fly
Leaving me behind with no goodbye
Why do you agree to disagree?
And desecrate the shame that buries me?
Scraping at the soil between our hearts
I realise the time we've spent apart.
Rituals are received inside the fire
No more miracles do we require
By burning the stars, we guide the light
It is heaven alone we seek tonight
While I belong in your embrace
You lay me to rest to be replaced
Just another matter to resolve
Just another riddle I can't solve
All I am to you is one more chance
One night to savour our last dance
Bu
The world I see before me is a vision sought most vile
Blackened lies welcome my cue for dancing with denial
Inside this cage a ballroom glazed with neither gold or glitter
But Nightmare's fornication leaving my life tasting bitter
I glance upon an orchestra as they begin to play
With instruments designed to perceive nothing but dismay
Comprised of severed heartstrings and bows to scrape the flesh
Of victims such as I with no more secrets to confess
Satanic choirs reverberate not hymns of hope and glory
But harmonises weaknesses and pains derogatory
Only the most powerful emotions they convey
But although their lips are moving, I c
As Life Ends, Another Begins by chrisosullyo, literature
Literature
As Life Ends, Another Begins
So many emotions conflicting against one another, and this aura of empowerment infected my conscience like a ravaging plague; a plague so potent no dosage of reassurance or tranquillity could possibly cure. I can feel such immortal grief taunting me into submission, echoing through the emptiness that this sorrow has left behind in my aching heart.
For what purpose do I live for now? Is there any meaning to the daily routine I have religiously followed all these passing years, or is now the time for me to live my life in denial and resent every waking moment I have spent on this Godforsaken planet?
Everything that I have aspired to be... eve
This is who we are, it's a fate we can't evade
We can only pay respect to the hollow vows we made
But the regret blazing in my heart has left it scarred and broken
As it's parasitic nature drains the faith so long unspoken
The sound of daily prayer delivers pride which I must swallow
And my ego cannot fill the footprints I must blindly follow
This cacophonous symphony rings music to my ears
Of a prophet's saddening story wrote in blood, sweat and tears.
The beauty of a shining torch converts the fallen masses
As stone by stone, the structured life in which I lead collapses
Philosophy's irrelevant and opinions no longer matter
But t
In this chaos I blindly create
Life and Death must consummate
For unwielding power bestowed onto me:
The choice to control my destiny
These darkened pathways begin to unweave
Opportunistic as I hope to achieve
These hopes and dreams that I had once lost
When I nailed my beliefs to the core of the cross
Penetration of my soul
Eternal damnation takes it's toll
Reclamation never sounded so sweet
As the birth of creation rests beneath my feet
Inevitably there's consequence
Actions are changed and new lives commence
A chance of a lifetime, A lifeline so brisk
But with responsibility, there's always a risk:
Should I play God by cont
Pain in my chest, hand on your heart
You swore on your life we wouldn't be apart
Broken promises beared far beyond compare
To the empty embrace from the love that we shared
My life's without meaning, the silence subsides
Into what hell must feel like when you're trapped inside
Dancing into the flame, Forked tongues whisper my name
My soul spiralling down in the abyss of pain
The plates and the shards that litter the floor
Shattered memories of the lifetime before
Replacement of dreams with my voiceless screams
Brings the pleasure and pain I suffer in between
So just walk away, slam the door of deceit
With my weakness encased, I c
Unbreakable chains of sorrow and fear
Struggle you may, and struggle you might
The sound of your demons drawing you near
As asphyxiation shifts from darkness to light
But don't be afraid, I'm here by your side
Holding your hand, embracing your skin
With the love that we share and the tears that we've cried
Together we'll face the horrors within
You cannot resist the sweetest temptation
I'll set you free with the song in my heart
Your endless desire to endure deprivation
Serenades my soul as it drives us apart
But don't be afraid, I'm here by your side
Holding your hand, embracing your skin
With the love that we share and the tea
What we shared was something beautiful. Being so close, I knew that nothing could stand in our way.
You tugged at my heartstrings, but the melody blissfully sings a long, forgotten memory.
When you left, I... I lost myself. I didn't know who I was anymore.
It's as if Cupid had struck me alone with a flaming arrow; happiness buried in cinders.
I know it's a lot to ask, but someday, deep down, heart in the purest of hearts, I know you'll still be there. Waiting for me.
Through a combination of fear, hope and compassion, your shining light will guide me home.
I love you. Like no other. That cannot be changed.
You may be missing from my l
Swings And Roundabouts by chrisosullyo, literature
Literature
Swings And Roundabouts
Two weary travellers forever to wander, with only the wind to guide them.
Standing alone. Elevating to new heights. Effort embedded deep within the bones of your ancestry.
Circular motion. One track-mind. The skill of survival, only your strength can support you.
Both moving in one direction. Neither going nowhere.
You conform to the rustics, a fateful bond which encapsulates within every unforgiving moment.
Such elemental attraction. Show your true colours.
Azure sky reflects upon the Sun's mysterious gaze, twinkle in its eye.
Not a cloud is to be seen on such a glorious day... yet judgement has never been foggier.
Life is no picni
Living all alone without a care
All of my emotions unprepared
Spread your broken wings and learn to fly
Leaving me behind with no goodbye
Why do you agree to disagree?
And desecrate the shame that buries me?
Scraping at the soil between our hearts
I realise the time we've spent apart.
Rituals are received inside the fire
No more miracles do we require
By burning the stars, we guide the light
It is heaven alone we seek tonight
While I belong in your embrace
You lay me to rest to be replaced
Just another matter to resolve
Just another riddle I can't solve
All I am to you is one more chance
One night to savour our last dance
Bu
The world I see before me is a vision sought most vile
Blackened lies welcome my cue for dancing with denial
Inside this cage a ballroom glazed with neither gold or glitter
But Nightmare's fornication leaving my life tasting bitter
I glance upon an orchestra as they begin to play
With instruments designed to perceive nothing but dismay
Comprised of severed heartstrings and bows to scrape the flesh
Of victims such as I with no more secrets to confess
Satanic choirs reverberate not hymns of hope and glory
But harmonises weaknesses and pains derogatory
Only the most powerful emotions they convey
But although their lips are moving, I c
As Life Ends, Another Begins by chrisosullyo, literature
Literature
As Life Ends, Another Begins
So many emotions conflicting against one another, and this aura of empowerment infected my conscience like a ravaging plague; a plague so potent no dosage of reassurance or tranquillity could possibly cure. I can feel such immortal grief taunting me into submission, echoing through the emptiness that this sorrow has left behind in my aching heart.
For what purpose do I live for now? Is there any meaning to the daily routine I have religiously followed all these passing years, or is now the time for me to live my life in denial and resent every waking moment I have spent on this Godforsaken planet?
Everything that I have aspired to be... eve
This is who we are, it's a fate we can't evade
We can only pay respect to the hollow vows we made
But the regret blazing in my heart has left it scarred and broken
As it's parasitic nature drains the faith so long unspoken
The sound of daily prayer delivers pride which I must swallow
And my ego cannot fill the footprints I must blindly follow
This cacophonous symphony rings music to my ears
Of a prophet's saddening story wrote in blood, sweat and tears.
The beauty of a shining torch converts the fallen masses
As stone by stone, the structured life in which I lead collapses
Philosophy's irrelevant and opinions no longer matter
But t
In this chaos I blindly create
Life and Death must consummate
For unwielding power bestowed onto me:
The choice to control my destiny
These darkened pathways begin to unweave
Opportunistic as I hope to achieve
These hopes and dreams that I had once lost
When I nailed my beliefs to the core of the cross
Penetration of my soul
Eternal damnation takes it's toll
Reclamation never sounded so sweet
As the birth of creation rests beneath my feet
Inevitably there's consequence
Actions are changed and new lives commence
A chance of a lifetime, A lifeline so brisk
But with responsibility, there's always a risk:
Should I play God by cont
Pain in my chest, hand on your heart
You swore on your life we wouldn't be apart
Broken promises beared far beyond compare
To the empty embrace from the love that we shared
My life's without meaning, the silence subsides
Into what hell must feel like when you're trapped inside
Dancing into the flame, Forked tongues whisper my name
My soul spiralling down in the abyss of pain
The plates and the shards that litter the floor
Shattered memories of the lifetime before
Replacement of dreams with my voiceless screams
Brings the pleasure and pain I suffer in between
So just walk away, slam the door of deceit
With my weakness encased, I c
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My voice has always sounded sorta dry (or at least, that's what some people tell me. Even the word 'accentless' has been thrown in there XD). Visited my GP today to help deal with the speech problem. Turns out I suffer from an inflamed larynx. He also suspects I have laryngitis.
AWESOME.
It's getting harder and harder to speak every single day. I can actually feel the muscles tensing in my throat just attempting to form words. It freaking hurts! D:
There's gonna be a point where I'm gonna have to carry a notepad and pen whenever I want to join in a conversation. XD I've even chosen not to speak at all at home. Nothing's really changed - I'm pretty much the 'lackey' in the house who's only purpose is to exist when people need something. XD Ah wellz.
Meant to be seeing a speech therapist, but had NO contact from the GP about it. Might go and visit them soon.